Reminiscin'

I just reconnected with PFellowship blog and was reading some of my past blog posts.  One of them was about my yearning to leave and find different churches, and i just realized why i could never leave our church.

below, i just copied and pasted a portion of my past post. (i dont have time to do new posts, now that i have writing assignments every week at school)

I most recently had lunch with my uncle who is a Baptist church pastor who apparently, now travels around the world preaching and spreading the good news of Jesus. I told him of my salvation, I told him about KCBC, I didn't tell him about Peter Fellowship and my active participation thereof. He told me I didnt necessarily have to go to a church that seems to disparage or criticize other churches. That spiritual life is not about the church, but about you and Jesus. He said, there are zero churches that is true or following the truth in its entirety because people run the church, and people are not righteous. I gave him my email address, he said he wants me to stop by a few baptist churches around my neighborhood that he knows. He said become an active member of a church, join their youth ministry and live according to the scriptures as much as possible in my youth. He said I'm still very young, that I am still in my youth. I think this is what all older people say to younger people, but nevertheless I told him I would look into his suggestions. I may, I may not, but regardless I know our church is not run by people. I know our church is not run by Peter Yoon, I know its not run by the Brothers Fellowship or someone within. Our church is in fact a church with life, sustained by Jesus Christ, and I really don't think all other churches can testify to this without feeling a bit of skepticsm in their hearts. (or I'm just plain wrong because i'm biased or restricted in my views, but I think my views are accurate)
The time when I used to come to church and leave during final prayer so I wouldn't be asked to stay for fellowships. When I didn't even look at anyone to keep myself from catching "worldly" feelings towards anyone was when I had the most intimate relationship with God. It was the little things that kept me coming to church when I didn't socialize with anyone at church. I didn't want to judge anyone, so I just decided not to look at or talk to anyone. Such a fool I was, but that helped me alot in who I am now. Brother Jimmy. How our church didn't ask what my age was or what I did in terms of job. The little things. Nobody asked me what my hobbies were. Our church always restricted its need for appeasing its worldly curiosities to make sure it wouldn't be a potential stumbling block. I noticed this early on, it's these little subtle things that makes our church unique and just so darn wonderful. Happy, go, lucky. I used to hate on people i perceived to be "happy go lucky", now I feel happy, I just go, and I feel lucky to be alive with this church. Has anyone seen the movie Prophecy? A fallen angel(Christopher Walken) talks of becoming the very thing that he has despised, a human, able to feel pain, sorrow, anguish, restricted(or enslaved) by emotions(or sin) in their potential to accept and abide in the grace/love of God. Now i, myself have become "happy, go, lucky". You may not feel me on this, understandably. Well, I was that human, as Walken might say, "a talking monkey", but by the blood of Christ I am no longer restricted by sin, rather I'm liberated to spread the good news. So I'm saying I agree with Darwin and the Theory of Evolution in that we have evolved from "monkeys", I guess you can say we do live in the Planet of the Apes. Are you still just a "talking monkey"? Let's evolve. We are meant for so much more than to live for self gratification. let's be a child of God.
I love you all.