Single Joy

I just needed to get this off my chest in words because I just play dumb and disinterested to this subject when I’m at church. I think I have become a stumbling block for a few people at our church at certain points. It’s distracting me. It makes me mad that my spiritual life is being distracted by this.

Once you accept the love of Christ, it’s natural and undoubted, you have love for every soul, your eyes have opened to see beyond flesh in loving everyone…anyone. This is even more easily felt within church, amongst brothers and sisters, and within the fellowship. In 2nd Corinthians 6, it states “do not be unequally yoked with unbelievers…”, so it’s only natural I feel companionship and affection for certain people WITHIN church and not out. This is hard for me. I realize there aren’t too many single guys/brothers in my age group at our church. So sadly, single sisters in similar age group are limited in their choices, if in fact they’re looking within church for a suitor…..and I feel sorry. I wish I can witness and bring some better potential suitors to our church for them.

Anyways, it’s an annoying thought that won’t go away and just gets compounded with passing of time, with time it gets more frustrating. It’s like I’m a tourist in Marriageville, Marriedland and all the locals are looking at me strangely. “What’s his problem?”

I love fellowships with the youths, like Timothy and Peter Fellowships because I don’t really think about this, but when I’m with older brothers and sisters or when I attend a church fellowship, I feel all this pressure. I know I have a sister I wouldn’t mind spending the rest of my earthen life in companionship and fellowship with, yet, I also have the worldly perceptions that I can’t seem to shake from my heart. In fact, I can pretty much see myself with any and every single sisters in my relative age group. They’re all attractive in their own ways, but most importantly, they have faith in God and they profess of the day they became born again and loves the church first and foremost. There is no greater attraction to me than a person who sacrifices their own desires and walk contrary to their needs and or of their former selves for the sake of Christ in accordance with the scripture. There are so many single sisters that are angelic in both appearance and heart at our church. Their life completely revolves around church aside from work or school. I’ve grown to love our sisters not only in Christ, but a lot of them in the worldly sense as well. It’s not a lust thing. It’s like your best friend you have love for, and I feel like I have a bunch of best friends that I love. Do I necessarily have to pick one to hold hands with though?

The thing with being a brother under Christ at our church is, we have to perceive the soul before the flesh in discerning any possibilities of a worldly relationship that can be formed. This is easy. You have fellowship with them. You get to know them spiritually first, and you realize who you can become “equally yoked” with in forming a relationship. The hard part is sticking with the spiritual discernment. I think we’re all looking for the perfect counterpart. Wanting the best of both worlds. I’m not saying the worldly aspect of all this is unimportant, but it is a whole lot less important than being compatible spiritually. I think I know of a few sisters that I can be spiritually compatible with. I just haven’t put to death my ability to perceive with my flesh completely, to want to make a commitment to any of them. I’m really done with this after this. I feel like I’m spewing words utterly unrelated to the will of God.

So today, I’m proposing myself to stand firmly in Christ and stop thinking about marriage. Just like when I first got saved.

Delight in the Lord, F the Rest. So here’s two middle fingers to marriage and satan….. (sorry, I don’t mean to be profane in my expressions, but I deem it necessary)

Brother jimmy   =/